Superlative Deviation: Life With Meaning, Life With Joy

While working through my shadow self issues with Alura, I learned that two of my faults are jealousy and gossip. This is a very big topic that most people misunderstand. Jealousy and gossip are not what we’ve been taught to think they are.

Recently, I realized another one of my hidden issues is that I’m still seeking my father’s approval. I haven’t let go of the fact that he isn’t the person I wanted or needed him to be. Alura had already told me he wasn’t going to change no matter how hard we tried to convince him something was wrong. Even though I no longer see him, I haven’t gone on with my life the way I need to. My mind is still working the way it always has. When I told my mother this, she confirmed it right away, saying that she’d always seen it and tried to explain to me what was really going on even when I was little. Of course, children don’t get it; but I still needed to hear it. If she hadn’t spoken up when she did, I wouldn’t have that conversation to look back on now. And still, I have my mentor to go to for advice and support.

I can’t stress enough the value of having true guidance! People think they can be their own teacher/leader/god/savior – especially those in the New Age Movement. As someone who was involved with New Age, I’m telling you it’s not true. They tell you that everyone can awaken and ascend. If it was as easy as they say, then why is humanity now a dying species? If the world is ascending, then why do we have more crime, addictions, and polution than ever before? Everything “new” is old, and everything “old” is new. I’ve learned some amazing things since I stopped trying to be the leader of the spiritual pack.

I think I’m going to write a few poems about my new discoveries. I’ve done this several times before, and they always turn out great.