Sometimes things don’t work out the way we’d like them to. If I had my way, this Grianstad season would be a lot more enjoyable. Instead, I’ve been challenged to make what I want out of it.

Lately, I’ve been suffering from severe anxiety, which is unusual for me. It’s not really surprising, however, considering the atmosphere and what’s about to happen in the world. Alura says one of the keys is to stay busy, maintain health and fitness, and not give up on our spiritual paths. And I must say that although I still have bad days, they aren’t as bad as they would be if I was sitting around doing nothing.

Everyone has been struggling to find work these days, and I’m no exception. I recently qualified to become a website tester but haven’t been given any assignments yet. I still do surveys, but that’s doesn’t help me earn enough to live on. What I do earn, I don’t keep for myself. It goes towards bills and the running of the household.

While I’m not yet where I want to be – and I have many of the same concerns about the future that others have – I’m not giving up. Being aware of the true times we’re going through (thanks to Alura and The Angelic Herald) brings a sense of calm, and following the guidance has helped immensely. My relationship with God and the Heavens is paramount, and prayer has become an even bigger part of my life than it already was.

That’s not to say I haven’t experienced some growing pains, though. I have, and I am. Working on my YouTube channel and trying to learn to do a little editing is sometimes a pain. The less I have to be bothered with “technology” the better, but it’s unavoidable for the moment. Trying to find the time to record aggravates me, but there are times when I almost enjoy it.

Another downside is that I haven’t been able to make time to write or continue editing my novel. As soon as I try to make time for it, something else comes up that leads to more anxiety – and if I’m anxious, I can’t focus enough to write. The good news is, I’m too busy with everything else to waste energy being upset about it.

So today, I’ve made a decision: No more try. Do. Just breathe and do stuff. I may not be able to balance everything yet, but I can balance some things.

I have reconnected with my friends in the Facebook group (Ethereal Consciousness). After some time, we’re all coming together again and making a point of showing up, posting, encouraging each other, and opening up a little more about ourselves where we feel comfortable. It’s beginning to feel the way it used to in the early days.

I’ve chosen to begin sharing a little more of my life here on the blog and may touch on a few more spiritual projects and experiences in the near future. Despite having more to juggle now, I’m going to make a point of being more active here, as well. I am not giving up on any of my projects, and I will not neglect any area of my life. I’m not going to submit to the darkness and heaviness in the air. Heaven has plans for me. And I don’t know what they all are, I intend to see them through to the end. I hope you’ll join me.

Blessed be,

E.W.